I woke on your side of the bed

I woke on your side of the bed
One year and one day
Since I knew you were leaving it for good


It's taken my body this long
To learn
To take up space
To sleep through the night
Not to shy away when flesh touches flesh


The alarm ringing came as a surprise
I was so far away
I only heard it when the high tones began
It took rolling over three times
To reach it


It occurred to me that it's too big
This bed we bought together
But it's not
Someone else will eventually share it with me
Perhaps only briefly
Maybe until one of us dies
But until then
I will spread my limbs as wide as they can go
Or curl up knees to chest
And know it is mine