What doesn't kill you

​I am tired of the platitudes
Of "what doesn't kill you" apologists
What doesn't kill you doesn't make you stronger
It just doesn't kill you all the way

What doesn't kill you leaves you broken
Irreparable 
Leonard Cohen's light getting cracks

What doesn't kill you makes you brittle
Susceptible to more breakage
Rare is the one who says 
I want that shattered thing

What doesn't kill you makes you angrier
Wary of anything that looks like what didn't kill you
Because it likely still walks

What doesn't kill you makes you sadder
Grieving for what you've lost 
Can never have again 

What doesn't kill you makes you hungrier
For something that will never fill you
Jaws gaping, stomach growling 
Still empty

What doesn't kill you makes you tired
It didn't kill you but you're still
Fixing the unfixable
Fighting the unfightable
Mourning your own incomplete death
Feeding the insatiable